it's a brand new life...

 

I can't seem to get my thoughts together.. my mind is all over the place.. i need to start writing in a journal more.. if i get all my thoughts onto paper maybe i can make sense of it all.. it's funny how my mind always wants to make the worst out of every situation, every person.. i think i set myself up so i don't get hurt.. that is no way to live.. i need to enjoy the moment.. live in the present.. does anyone else ever get this way?? it's as if i am scared of being content.. it's pure madness.. i can't accept that everything is ok.. i need to find the negative in it all.. probably sounds like a bunch of rubbish.. who knows.. just something i am thinking about..